Walking through the morning bliss,
just after a drizzle,
taking in the aroma of petrichor,
the tickling of sunlight seeping through the green clouds,
makes me want to etch this time
strolled to reach the gusty dusk,
just before the wormhole,
afraid to breathe but gasp,
the abhor of dust racing through the black clouds,
makes me want to pace this time
running ahead to be held back,
hauling out to be shoved in,
stuck in the rat race, panting to slip out,
fell hard, ricocheted harder,
self-retreat, the ineffable treat,
makes me want to be I
– Xavi, the kavi
In the first stanza, Xavi speaks about how he enjoys a pleasurable moment or experience. He is seen walking just after a light rain. Petrichor is the earthly scent produced when rain falls on dry soil which according to him is one of most pleasant scents in existence.
The green clouds indicate the dense lush trees all around him. In the last line, Xavi wishes to freeze time so that he could be stuck at that moment forever. This suggests the escaping mentality with which people are guided.
In the second stanza, Xavi snaps out of the warmth received from the pleasant time and embraces a touch of reality suggesting a fast-paced world where everyone is interested in spending time in their rooms which he compares to a wormhole. This is also an indication to the narrow-mindedness of the people.
He is afraid to breathe as the air is polluted. Sadly, he’s left with no other choice but to inhale the contaminants. The pollution has also caused the clouds to have a black and dull appearance.
In a general sense, the pollution, dust and other elements are the negative vibes surrounding an individual. He wants this terrible phase to pass as fast as possible but realizes that there are no shortcuts involved.
In the final stanza, he tries to go ahead with his life but is pulled back because of his bad habits. He wants to get out of the pit and is trying to come out of it but the harder he tries, he keeps getting drowned in the mud.
Xavi is stuck in a rat race which does no good to him. He wants a way out of it and knows that it will be tough when he gets out of his comfort zone. Eventually, he finds his way out but has to deal with a major setback.
He bounced back to stand up on his legs, and turns to himself (self-retreat) for answers which is the best solution to all the problems in life. His conversation with himself helps him to live in the present and to be himself.
The last word ‘I’ has boundless possibilities. It speaks about the power of your subconscious mind and how you can use it to work wonders in your life.
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